So as most people bring back an alpaca jumper from Ecuador I
just had to be different and bring back a baby. Now don’t worry it is mine and
I haven’t just taken one off the street or from Otavalo market as I was previously
told I could buy anything there! Yep, I’m almost 4 months pregnant and over the
moon. It was a shock to both the father and I, but a wanted and loved little
shock. Since coming back I have realised what wonderful friends and family I have
here as I face one of the scariest jobs I have ever been given. I mean really
me a mother…. Ahh I have no idea what to expect and just keep being told ‘you
will just know and you will be fine’. I on the other hand do not have as much
faith and seem to spend all my free time reading books and asking questions.
One book a friend gave me seems to be an idiots guide to being a parent (
thanks by the way) with an alphabetical index with questions, for example ‘why
is my baby crying?’ ‘ How many times should I feed my baby?’ ‘ How do I change
a nappy?’. As I sat there laughing picturing a bleak and decrepit looking
mother with a hungry, wet and angry baby looking through an index for answers I
suddenly felt the cold realisation that I didn’t know the answers to these
questions and in a couple of months I would be THAT woman! The laughter stopped
and the book reading started!
The other day I met up with some friends for lunch and one’s
6 month old baby boy, she seemed so together and happy in this new position as
if she was always meant to be give this role. When it was my turn for a cuddle
with the gorgeous little man (who god love him had been passed around a full
table of women but seemed to love the attention) after giving out a couple of
beautiful smiles which melted my heart he then fell asleep on me. To sound
soppy but it was wonderful to feel this cuddly warm baby’s sleepy breathing and
to smell that clean fresh baby smell. It’s so amazing to think that in a couple
of months I will have this all from my own tiny little baby.
